I want a Man that wants me for me. All of me.

I want a Man that stands the test of time.

I want a Man that can communicate His needs, wants, desires, feelings, thoughts, and will do so with me, with no fear of me thinking less of Him for being human.

I want a Man that is kind, caring, and compassionate.

I want a man who can understand that I can, and will be the moon and stars to light any and all of His dark nights.

I want a Man that will lead, but is willing to have me by His side; helping Him with anything we may face.

I want a Man who challenges me to be better than I am, to go the distance.

I want a Man that appreciates my talents, gifts, abilities, and encourages me in them.

I want a Man that is able to be my Friend too.

I want a Man that is passionate about life and love, who shows by word and deed I am His woman, whom He is proud of.

I want a Man that will not let me get away with any of my bs, will understand what is in my heart and head; my why-fores (or at least Seek To understand). Who can jolt me out of apathy, and chide me out of a bad mood.

I want a Man that appreciates Nature, Books, Philosophy, and Spirituality.

I want a Man unafraid of hard work, and who is wise with finances.

I want a Man that understands that flaws have beauty too, and is not a perfectionist but wants to better Himself, who wants and helps me to do the same.

I want a Man that is Self-Aware.

I want a Man that has a good sense of humour, and can laugh at himself also.

I want a Man that likes to cuddle, hold hands, share a cuppa, and can enjoy companionable silences.

I want a Man that is a Gentlemen, and a Rogue behind closed doors.

I want a Man that knows what He wants and needs also. One whom will not settle anymore than I will for “less than” what we both deserve to have to be happy Together.

I want a Man that has Vision for the Future, has Dreams, and wants me to be a part of them all. Just as I will Him in mine.

These are listed as Wants. I also know myself well, and I know a lot of these are real needs too. I also do not expect perfection in anyone or anything. I believe that to do your personal best is enough.
I have had a long time to think on these things, and I know that I need a man that Guides me and wants me beside Him come what may. Many Alpha and Dominate males out there will not realise I have a submissive way in and about me, whilst I am a strong willed and minded capable woman. I have no choice but to be so.

A woman alone must be able to take care of herself and her loved ones. I’d hope any Man worth His “salt” would want a woman that can stand on her own, but choose to follow her Mate to hell and back willingly.

I am strong yet fragile. I am what, and who I am with no apologies.

Shine Dark,
Starra

“I ask a lot from others, because it is what I would be willing to give.” ~Unknown

“A Good View”

A good view from a window is essential to me. I am in a place where my window is tiny, and the “view” is the shed. Not much joy to be found. I guess it could be a lot worse. In fact I know it could. So I’ll not complain too much. But I will hope for a lovely view in my next Home. I also think because as a kid I could look up and see the Australian Pines swaying to and fro most days I was a bit spoiled for views. It was so peaceful and in a storm quite exhilarating. Thus I grew up loving trees, windows, and views. I also like interesting view points.

What are your views?

~ Starra Neely Blade

(c) 2012

“That that is is that that is. Not is not. Is that it? It is.”

This relates a simple philosophical proverb in the style of Parmenides that all that is, is, and that anything that does not exist does not.

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Not All That Random…

I believe in life we all see things from our own perspective. I refuse to make anyone feel wrong for that. Mine is my own. I may be wrong in my thinking. BUT it is up to me to change it. In time I will. I believe Life has lessons for all of us and that we grow as we are meant, change when we are meant to.My answers to the Tests are not going to be another persons. I do not think it can be, nor perhaps should be.

I taught my children at home. (Home Scoolinh) I was not the best or worst Moms or teachers. I have 3 daughters whom are all very different in personality and learning styles. I had to adapt to them, and to this teaching style too. I knew the cookie cutter ways of educating were not going to be of benefit to them, so we utilised what worked and tossed out what did not.

Was it a perfect method? No, it was not. But it is the best in that moment of time that I/we could do.

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My Beliefs (Not Universal, Just My Own)

I do not believe in anyone having all the answers. I do not believe in anyone being able to fix another person. I do not believe in pushing others too hard or too fast (though i am guilty of that) . I do not believe I have the right to judge another’s levels of pain nor their ability to deal with them.

We all learn, grow, adapt, etc as differently as we are different. I try to see it in a place of acceptance. Being imperfect I fail at times and get impatient with the process.

You see I am so aware that I have “issues”. They are mine to deal with. Well honestly others in my life deal with them too as I am part of them and they me. Whomever we touch .

I do not mean to be problematic, nor do I wish anyone to think because of my abuse I consider myself a victim.

I see myself as a survivor, of my abuse and my life.
I am not whole. I know that. I am in fact so broken you can see the light from the moon, stars and sun through me.
Some might think that beautiful., Others might see me as too messed up.
I see me as Trying to grow strong in my broken places and Trying to be a useful “cracked pot”.

I respect all who are at least Trying. I also have compassion for those so hurt or hurt that cannot. I do not judge as I have been there. Judged and “hung” for my wrongs.

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Compassion & Other Lessons From A Dear Friend:

A very groovy goddess Sister-Friend taught me a lot about things like this because she had been there and done that and had learned that seeking to be Living in the Moment, Living Authentically, Loving Compassionately & seeking to speak with Radical Honesty worked so well in her life and the lives of “Great Teachers” throughout history.

*note please that Radical Honesty does not give anyone of us the right to hurt others. It needs to be utilsed with Loving Compassion, Kindness, and Tolerance.

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My Thinking & semi Disclaimer:

I am not in any way wanting or asking for pity, nor expecting understanding. I wrote this For Me.
For mostly I Write so as to understand my own mind and heart better.
I ask Questions so as to understand also. Though I have so many questions I can often annoy others with them.

So when I write for me and it touches or speaks to others I believe that Spirit has chosen to use me as a vessel or conduit. That is my perception of The Universe, God and/or Goddess. Spirit is thought to be a part of them All. It is what I asked years ago; to be used as a vessel or conduit for Spirit in my writing and in any blogging I do.

All of us can be used in a positive way for them to reach others. One hopes. It is to me a spiraling out to the world. It is a spiritual and personal concept that stems from my various pearl gathering and wisdom seeking as well as my Goddess Spirituality & Pagan thinking.

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Things I Learned About Myself in Life 101 thus far:

I can and do and will fail. I will f**k up and I will hurt others by doing so. I will make the same mistakes twice and maybe more than that. Eventually my slow sided self will learn. (Or die trying) I am both smart and I am foolish.
I do not always trust my first impressions, insights &/or instincts often enough. I trust some folks a second and third time when I should not.
I trust some persons so much and am rewarded with the best possible folks in my life … some of whom have hurt me a lot & yet they are not bad people, only imperfect like myself. They can hurt me because I care for or love them.
I know if I care or love I open myself to being hurt. I chose to do this because closing myself off again is not a option for me.

I believe in the Possibilities of Love and I believe there are Soul Mates.

I believe in persons that no one else does and even if they hurt me or they screw up I do not stop liking or loving them. Some of them are chosen family, others are kin.

I will hurt you. I will fail. I will be thoughtless, unkind, insensitive, and rude perhaps.
I will be and can be kind, sweet, thoughtful, and loving.

I will try again and again and again to “get it right”. I rarely give up on others and on myself.

If I love you and you love me I’d rather hurt myself than hurt you. (I may still hurt you but I will die a thousand deaths for doing so and I will do most anything to make it up to you.) If you love me and I love you I am loyal, trustworthy and I stick. I will also do my utmost to help, to make your life better, take the blame again and again and think it is my fault things are wrong.

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My “Truths”:

My truth is not going to be everyone else’s truth and that is okay.

I will love you to the detriment of my self.

I will agree to disagree so as to keep the peace between others and myself and to keep us friends or on friendly terms.

*** There are certain things of course that are ethical I will not agree with some about.

Please Note:

This Blog today is brought to by the Letter S and from my feeble brain that is aching from sinus, headache & crying pressures, and my sick stomach from these and from hurting others and in myself.
So it may make sense this blog or it make be rubbish.
I’d lay down to sleep some more if I did not think my vertigo would make me “toss cookies.” TMI I know.

I try to laugh at my self even when i do not feel like laughing at anything else.

Thanks for Listening.

Shine Dark,
Starra

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“Universal Truths” ?!

Universal Truth #8:Someone, somewhere will always be offended
Universal Truth # 10 The truth is no one knows the truth.
Universal Truth #11: Love cannot be faked.
Universal Truth # 64 Truth is infinite, understanding is finite

It will take Someone Special to Want All of Me…

I am a “Beautiful Mess”. But I have Worth even in my messed up-ness. ;)

Ever notice the ones we KNOW are Someone Special do not See Themselves as Special?
Yet us Broken Ones (like me) see it as clear as day, or as clear as the full moon shines on us in the dark nights?

It is like in the movie Avatar where they stated: “I SEE You”.

If that Someone Special can SEE me and like me, all of me (faults & all)… Well, I feel Awesome. I have deep sight, in that I SEE most people. A gift of sorts this. So I SEE You, and I like all of you. Unconditional Love is my thing.

Colour me amused at my philosophical thoughts today.

~Starra, Le Minx

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