“That that is is that that is. Not is not. Is that it? It is.”
This relates a simple philosophical proverb in the style of Parmenides that all that is, is, and that anything that does not exist does not.
Not All That Random…
I believe in life we all see things from our own perspective. I refuse to make anyone feel wrong for that. Mine is my own. I may be wrong in my thinking. BUT it is up to me to change it. In time I will. I believe Life has lessons for all of us and that we grow as we are meant, change when we are meant to.My answers to the Tests are not going to be another persons. I do not think it can be, nor perhaps should be.
I taught my children at home. (Home Scoolinh) I was not the best or worst Moms or teachers. I have 3 daughters whom are all very different in personality and learning styles. I had to adapt to them, and to this teaching style too. I knew the cookie cutter ways of educating were not going to be of benefit to them, so we utilised what worked and tossed out what did not.
Was it a perfect method? No, it was not. But it is the best in that moment of time that I/we could do.
My Beliefs (Not Universal, Just My Own)
I do not believe in anyone having all the answers. I do not believe in anyone being able to fix another person. I do not believe in pushing others too hard or too fast (though i am guilty of that) . I do not believe I have the right to judge another’s levels of pain nor their ability to deal with them.
We all learn, grow, adapt, etc as differently as we are different. I try to see it in a place of acceptance. Being imperfect I fail at times and get impatient with the process.
You see I am so aware that I have “issues”. They are mine to deal with. Well honestly others in my life deal with them too as I am part of them and they me. Whomever we touch .
I do not mean to be problematic, nor do I wish anyone to think because of my abuse I consider myself a victim.
I see myself as a survivor, of my abuse and my life.
I am not whole. I know that. I am in fact so broken you can see the light from the moon, stars and sun through me.
Some might think that beautiful., Others might see me as too messed up.
I see me as Trying to grow strong in my broken places and Trying to be a useful “cracked pot”.
I respect all who are at least Trying. I also have compassion for those so hurt or hurt that cannot. I do not judge as I have been there. Judged and “hung” for my wrongs.
Compassion & Other Lessons From A Dear Friend:
A very groovy goddess Sister-Friend taught me a lot about things like this because she had been there and done that and had learned that seeking to be Living in the Moment, Living Authentically, Loving Compassionately & seeking to speak with Radical Honesty worked so well in her life and the lives of “Great Teachers” throughout history.
*note please that Radical Honesty does not give anyone of us the right to hurt others. It needs to be utilsed with Loving Compassion, Kindness, and Tolerance.
My Thinking & semi Disclaimer:
I am not in any way wanting or asking for pity, nor expecting understanding. I wrote this For Me.
For mostly I Write so as to understand my own mind and heart better.
I ask Questions so as to understand also. Though I have so many questions I can often annoy others with them.
So when I write for me and it touches or speaks to others I believe that Spirit has chosen to use me as a vessel or conduit. That is my perception of The Universe, God and/or Goddess. Spirit is thought to be a part of them All. It is what I asked years ago; to be used as a vessel or conduit for Spirit in my writing and in any blogging I do.
All of us can be used in a positive way for them to reach others. One hopes. It is to me a spiraling out to the world. It is a spiritual and personal concept that stems from my various pearl gathering and wisdom seeking as well as my Goddess Spirituality & Pagan thinking.
Things I Learned About Myself in Life 101 thus far:
I can and do and will fail. I will f**k up and I will hurt others by doing so. I will make the same mistakes twice and maybe more than that. Eventually my slow sided self will learn. (Or die trying) I am both smart and I am foolish.
I do not always trust my first impressions, insights &/or instincts often enough. I trust some folks a second and third time when I should not.
I trust some persons so much and am rewarded with the best possible folks in my life … some of whom have hurt me a lot & yet they are not bad people, only imperfect like myself. They can hurt me because I care for or love them.
I know if I care or love I open myself to being hurt. I chose to do this because closing myself off again is not a option for me.
I believe in the Possibilities of Love and I believe there are Soul Mates.
I believe in persons that no one else does and even if they hurt me or they screw up I do not stop liking or loving them. Some of them are chosen family, others are kin.
I will hurt you. I will fail. I will be thoughtless, unkind, insensitive, and rude perhaps.
I will be and can be kind, sweet, thoughtful, and loving.
I will try again and again and again to “get it right”. I rarely give up on others and on myself.
If I love you and you love me I’d rather hurt myself than hurt you. (I may still hurt you but I will die a thousand deaths for doing so and I will do most anything to make it up to you.) If you love me and I love you I am loyal, trustworthy and I stick. I will also do my utmost to help, to make your life better, take the blame again and again and think it is my fault things are wrong.
My truth is not going to be everyone else’s truth and that is okay.
I will love you to the detriment of my self.
I will agree to disagree so as to keep the peace between others and myself and to keep us friends or on friendly terms.
*** There are certain things of course that are ethical I will not agree with some about.
This Blog today is brought to by the Letter S and from my feeble brain that is aching from sinus, headache & crying pressures, and my sick stomach from these and from hurting others and in myself.
So it may make sense this blog or it make be rubbish.
I’d lay down to sleep some more if I did not think my vertigo would make me “toss cookies.” TMI I know.
I try to laugh at my self even when i do not feel like laughing at anything else.
Thanks for Listening.
“Universal Truths” ?!
Universal Truth #8:Someone, somewhere will always be offended
Universal Truth # 10 The truth is no one knows the truth.
Universal Truth #11: Love cannot be faked.
Universal Truth # 64 Truth is infinite, understanding is finite