I read. I smiled. I enjoyed a sandwich. I chewed out my soon to be ex.
I relaxed and most of all I thought deep thoughts. Realising that even as I seek and desire to Go With the Flow, Be & Live Peace.. I am struggling against a selfish will that is going to take some time to chip away at.
Or as in a Visualisation I had as I was “thinking” or Meditating on my wants as opposed to what my Loved Ones NEED. For themselves, From me in support and understanding. I Knew but I was not fully putting these things in a proper action.
So as I meditated, I saw a blue wave so gentle coming towards me. I was in the water already, and it washed over me and carried me on it. I did not fight it. Thus I Went With Its Flow. It was peaceful, sweet, lovely, and calm.
I then shed a few I Miss You & Healing Tears. It was what I needed. I hope it will help My Loved ones too.
I am smiling even now. Peace is coming into me. I am Seeing how my “wants” need to be worn away like so much rock by these calm waters. It will take time. It will mean more patience from me and from My Loved Ones as it is all a process. I know I need to remember to get away from things that distract me from Being & Living Peace. To get back to the peacefulness too of my Spirituality. A simple act of lighting a candle and praying to Kuan Yin helped me immensely.
So Be It. I am Forever a Student of Life, of Deity & the Universe.